I'm feeling lethargic now. Rushed home from first day of attachment at Geylang Elderly Home and my piano teacher was already waiting for me to have lessons. Shucks almost fell asleep playing the piano :(

But first day of attachment was really good I thought. Some of them were unbelievably smart, funny and talkative! And cute haha! One of them started crying while I was talking to her I was so shocked didn't know what to do O: Another shared his sad life story and honestly I was stunned and had no idea how to respond..:(

Though it's gonna be tiring, I look forward to the next 2 weeks of attachment! I'm so so so glad there'll be no OGL meetings or walk-in practices this week if not I really have no freaking idea how i'm gonna juggle. Hate it when I have to make a choice as to which to sacrifice :(





Hysterella's really awesome love them all so much

For this is how, we sing our song :)

Now I have

1. My attachment for YVIP (at an elderly home somewhere near Geylang which is at least an hour and a half from my house) from Mondays till Fridays 9am - 5pm for two whole weeks
2. OGL walk-in dance practices and rehearsals
3. Trainings three times a week
4. Squeeze in 3 piano lessons in between

Everything clashes, shucks. I don't know which am I supposed to sacrifice what do I do! ):

Not to forget I still got to finish up my two thick math homework sets, a huge stack of chinese homework (screw chinese teachers ugh), and revising jh3 work before everything gets out of my head.

My goodnesssssssssssssssssssss.

HELLO!

Here's a little something I wanna share with you!

hahahahaha.

OK ANYWAY.

Just got back from Nachtmusik full dress rehearsal my hair still feels like ceramic from all the gel (to keep my lovely baby hairs up). Rehearsal was messy and I was shaking like mad plus it was cold. So, ugh. There were a few little kids, like about 5 years old or so? They were soooo CUTE HAHA they had to struggle to climb up the chair and they couldn't stop moving and jumping about.

Take picture and show you guys next time, if I get the chance to. :P



YUP COUSIN'S BAAAACK WOOHOO.

Other than this the rest of the days were mainly shopping and shopping and shopping with all the different lovely people and basically having fun :) Ugh I grew A LOT fatter, I realised. Bleah. :(

My holidays' gonna be busy yay I like :D Softball trainings, banner painting sessions, walk-in dance practices (shit), TAIWAN TRIP!!!!, kbox, sleepovers, chalet, youth involvement programme.

I'm going to start on a near impossible mission soon: pack my study room. My study room's floor area is gradually decreasing hahaha opps.

Till next time, meanwhile, have fun! :D

Back from obs, slept for 19 hours straight. I don't think I've ever felt so tired in my life. St john camps are like nothing now, maybe.

Checking of stores, drinking chlorine-taste-alike water from the shitty bottles from maybe centuries ago, cooking rice which tasted real delicious, pitching tents, getting confused over all the knots, kayaking almost 3/4 of ubin island, experiencing thunderstorm while kayaking and screaming and panicking, eating breads soaked with sea water, having fishes with pointed mouth jumping into our kayaks, getting lost, peeing and shitting in bushes at the shitty forest and in the sea, trekking with backpacks twice our sizes and weights, singing the school song both malay and english version and spongebob ben 10 songs etc to keep us all going, noisy but determined sweepers and everyone possessing superman powers so as to get back to camp 2 on time, spamming insect repellant and sun block on us, not being able to bathe after kayaking the entire day, helping each other massage our dying shoulders, running up and down washing mesh tins, screaming and repeating quotes out loud to pass the checkpoints, sitting down trying to decide which way to head for 20 mins but eventually let God decide (with a few strands of grasses hahaha), bad bathing experiences, eating dry maggi noodles to save water, trust games, ding dong piak, rock climbing and belayers flying, cooking and preparing for celebratory dinner, which turned out really really awesome (i cooked the soup heehee!) with apple crumble fried rice and soup all deliciously done, packing of store, then heading back to jetty and saying our goodbyes to Chee Tong and Yong Kang, the two most wonderful persons who were there for us through it all.

During obs everyday felt like years; we wanted obs to end so freaking much. But now thinking back, maybe it wasn't that bad, we had so much fun, no matter how tough it was.



I miss Magellan ): All 16 of us. So glad you guys were there to share this unforgettable experience with me, thank you love you guys so much

Back to civilisation.

My sister's keeper today would have been much better and I'd even have cried at certain parts if not for..
'oh my shit oh my shit', 'oh my god', 'haha!',  'stop it stop stop', 'that's disgusting', 'oh sick', 'what are they DOING' on my left (chengyang)
'i am hungry', 'shit i need to pee', 'she's so hot omg', 'yuck he look scary *screams*', 'nice butt man' on my right (xinxian)

OMG LOL. but the movie was still good! The book's MUCH better though. (:

It feels weird waking up and not having to go into a mad rush to get work done and make the day productive. It feels...nice!

( i miss )

Awesome to the max man exams' over!!!!!!! :D

I thought MA1102 paper was boring :/ was memorising geog cause I finished the paper + checked thru everything like almost an hour before the paper ends. I wna get full marks(!!!) *twist fingers* But geog was pretty bad had to spam lots of information wrote till my hand hurt ): Physics and bio were really bad though.

But heck, it's over :D PLAY TIME HAHAHAHAHA

Tea party after the last two papers today! Spent like hoursssss there playing taboo and making alot of noise :P while people were trying to study behind us whooops. BUTTT! they were so rude :( When we walked into the place they went 'SHIT!' in my face! So we pranked them hahaha OMG DAMN FUNNY BUT FAAAAAAAAAIL HAHA! Celebrated sha's birthday too! since we'll all be at obs on her birthday :(

500 Days Of Summer with Grace and Rika! Sha couldn't join us and yuxian had to go for tution :( So finally got to go out with that two canoeists (!!) 500 Days of Summer is a really really cool movie, it's a boy meet girl story but not cheesy and cliche like all other love stories/movies.

OBS is quite annoying, why must it be right after exams?! :O but still kinda excited though :D (can't find packing list shit) 04 outing tmr, my sister's keeper! Halloween party soon and karaoke sessions and kite flying and picnics YAYYYY!

Gotta catch up on sleep and hit the pillows bye!

What's with all these 23rds? All appearing at the same time. Over on 23rd, start over on 23rd, aha.
23rd will not be a day to be remembered from today onwards; just like any other day, nothing special anymore.

Shumin: There's a new classmate in our class today :) he's very friendly.
Sharmera: We have a new classmate? :O wow! Thats really something! Who's the kid?
Shumin: Yeah he got transferred into our class today. His name's Patrick! hahaha and he's quite cute!
Sharmera: Damn, now I'm guessing no more spongebob jokes. Hahaha! So cool:D Can't wait to meet him :D
Shumin: HAHAHAHAAHAHA!! check our his pictures on facebook later I have them in my phone uploading soon!
Sharmera: Shu, you're such a stalker :P
Shumin: But he's totally cute! Heheheh you'll believe when you see the photos later!
Sharmera: Like baby cute or handsome cute? HAHAHA
Shumin: You'll see later :P


Tadah! Our new classmate :D

I couldn't stop laughing at her text replies HAHAHA.

I'm getting fat which is a good or bad thing and I realised my cupboard's all gross and disgusting because there're loads of expired food stuff and sweets and chocolates hidden somwhere inside yuckz!

I should stop blogging so much :(

And so friday wasn't all that fab. Dance pe was pretty fun though, and then skip skip skip, visit back to nanhua was pretty boring. Everyone's busy with their own stuff, running around, no chance to sit down and talk kinda stuff. The only thing I really enjoyed was sitting down in st john's room and talking to them, walking around with them while they were doing their duties.

I miss being a part of them. Everytime they say something, I go 'Huh?' because I don't get what it's all about, this feeling. It sucks, I swear.



Hey thengxzxzxz, happy 15th :D Can't wait to meet all of you guys again after all this shit exams (KBOXXX!!) and meanwhile, stop growing taller alright!! If not i'll be sad again. hahaha. Study hard, all the best! 6 years of friendship and counting, love youuu!

Happy 15th too SIJIA! Last long with yeah you know. :)
And HAPPY 16TH LEONG QIQI :D Don't think you'll see this though, but still hope you had the sweetest sixteen. :D

Weekends' like a short little escape from reality, from life. So, oh no school's starting again tmr ugh. But heheh maybe after the J1s' promos more people will be down for a little throwing or batting, or at least i know fishie will, then woohooo yay I'll definitely pop down for a lil while to play!

Tata.

School's been crazy kind of MAD.

Still having new assignments thrown at us, while trying to finish up half done assignments and projects. Still having lessons and learning new topics, trying to stay awake everyday and absorb the lesson in as much as possible, and at the same time, trying to revise what we need to for the end of module tests.

Still trying to tell myself to stop whining. Ugh. Trying to make everyday as productive as possible, and so far it's going pretty well :)

SPIRE final report in today, oh gosh what a relief. Only OP left, and then it's over over over. And I'm not going to get pissed or annoyed over all this shit again. I'm going to keep what felly told me in mind, that I'm doing all this for myself. For myself for myself FOR MYSELF, no one else, nothing else. Give your best, nothing to lose anyway, learn what you can, and that's good enough.

Nyway, saw annabel the other day and had a little chat with her when i walked her to her class :D She lost quite some weight. Heartache. ): ): ):

I'm very tired. Think everyone else is.

( Sigh. )

I foresee that tomorrow will be a good day, especially evening evening evening time wooo (oh yes charge my cam!!:D) Please let this be true.

All the way guys. (Y)

Oh god today is a really bad day.

Three tests, physics, biology, then LA. Tiring like shit I was forcing myself to stay awake and finish up my compre test. And not to mention, DEMORALISING. I'm gna fail physics, my graph shape's totally wrong. And I bet biology's gone case too. If I fail this, it's gonna be my third failure for this module. Which is like all the tests.

And we just started on our last second topic today for bio, 2 more LONG chapters to go, 2 more weeks to end of module exams. What is wrong with all these teachers man? Forever asking us to stay back for make up lessons, trying to squeeze everything into 2 weeks? I'm so screwed so screwed so screwed I hate biology UGH why do we have to learn about plants and what exocytosis endocytosis glycolysis krebs cycle shit?! WHY TELL ME WHYYYY. At least physics make a little bit more sense :(

But both sucks. I'm considering to take arts in SH1. HMMMMMM. but omg sounds equally bad :(

I think I've complained to the whole wide world about this today :( Mm ugh maybe i should really stop whining and start doing something productive, like starting on a project which is due on wednesday.

I don't even feel like going for the forensic talk tmr night already, it's kinda a waste of time, having to stay in school from 12 to 6.30pm just to wait for that talk to start :O

But going back to nanhua for Mid Autumn celebrations on friday night! At least I've got something to really look forward to, seeing everyone there again makes me happy :) Can't wait!

Oh anyway. 04's crazy about tamil language, for some weird reasons. So stupid yuxian said this cheem tamil sentence to me.

So this part, is sincerely dedicated to you, my dearest yuxian.
THANKYOU, for being so mean and..........INSENSITIVE! Ugh omg to think I still asked Hari to help me translate?! Omg embarrassing ttm tyvm. ): ): ): But hey, look who's talking! HAHAHA


Funny, ahaha. I wish my dad will tell me, "You know you love me.." LOL. k not really.

So yeah, bad day. I need a break :(

But no, no time.

All the way friends (: (: And all the best for the upcoming promos too friends!

The Top Singtel Grid Girl 2009's called Low SHU MIN. eeeeeeeeks, whatever that is :O

Time's like flyinggggg nowdays, zoom whoosh and one day's over. Which can be a good thing, if you know what I mean. I don't like this exam period, because everyone's bzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. It's hard to even arrange a good time to meet up with some to catch up or something. :( I mean, some time away from books worksheets and books can be a good thing, right! I want so much to arrange a day out with buddy but he's forever busy when I'm free and vice versa. Aiyo what's this man. And I miss softball trainings so much ugh. Few more weeks to go!! I miss annabel too, want to talk to her soon :(

It's queer how you can look at someone and feel happy, it's not like there's anything or what, just this weird feeling. Wow. So stop telling me all these bad stuff, I don't really wna know anymore because it spoils first impressions, yknw. O:

I feel tired ttm :( I feel like an old woman. I freaking hate trigo now because I can't do the questions!

Today's the 62nd day. Things feel right, good sign. :)

Hee here's something to scare you. 

BAAHAHAHAHAHA SCARED?

OOOOK TTFN! :)

I didn't see that coming, :( If I had known, I wouldn't have turned down your one little request. Because now the only thing going through my head is that tinge of disappointment I saw in your eyes.
I should have known, man.

Yesterday weren't that bad afterall, good day still even though we had seven freaking hours straight of lessons. But more jokes added to Mr Yong's joke book! Haha. Passed intermediate level 1 for swimming! Not elementary 1, not e2, intermediate 1!! K it just sounds better that's all haha but omg dead men's float in the middle of the pool, alone, was horrible I felt retarded especially when my legs refused to cooperate and I had to kick to keep myself afloat. So what's the point of dead men's float, zzz.

( A little something else. )

Long weekend, awesome ttm :)
But EMTs' (End Of Module Tests) coming up, gotta buuuuck up! I want so much to go out, have fun, not stuck in my study room all day long :(


Ayyyyye.

Ballade pour Adeline, gna do it well. :) No room for screw-ups, no way.

GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 3 OUT AHHHH OMG YAYYY!

School's fun fun fun even though this week's like super duper uper busy :(

Ponned E-Broadcast today after school! Heheh but seriously I think it's just a waste of time sooo. Anyways, went to the staffroom with the six huge A1 sized posters with sharmera to pass to Mr Tan. And omgosh smth happened:
-scanning through list of teachers outside staffroom 1-
Me: Woahh, so many Mr Tans :O I know it's Tan something Long one.
Sha: Just ask for Mr Tan, the gay one!
Me: But isn't that like all the Math teachers!!
Sha: HAHAHA Can you imagine if this thing was on? -Checks the mike thingy-
Sha: OMG IT'S ON!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA *Ran away as fast as possible.

Sharmera said the most!! They will recognise HER voice if they were to come after us -comforts myself- HIAHIAHIA. :D

K afterwards managed to hunt down Mr Tan and passed his all the posters.
Mr Tan: What class is this ah?
Me: Oh-Fu.

I don't know why I said Oh Fu tooooo it just came out like that ): BUT doesn't it sound really cool.
Oh Fu sounds so cool and rocks like TO-FU. (it rhymessss!!)
I lub OH FUUUU HAHAHA :D

OMG tomorrow is gna be really bad I think. Swimming test in the morning! (MY TEST IS GOING TO BE SOOO TIRING HAHA) last swim lesson tmr gah :( Followed by 1 1/2hours break, and then lessons ALL THE WAAAY NO BREAK TILL 6 YAY WOOHOO. :( Ah crap so not fun. It's alright, more snacking in class tmr! Eating right in front of the teachers ahaha, not like they really care. Hmm.

Essays dateline pushed back 1 week AGAIN! Yay what should I say, Mr Scary rocks? So this means no rushing of work tonight! Except for trigo though, gotta start soon and then that's all! I think not procrastinating can really be a good thing.
Okay fine, it IS a good thing. :D

Rika makes me laugh like crazy mad omgosh I shan't reveal though it's far tooooo, CUTE.

I love BLG their new songs are so good Chemicals Collide's stuck in my head. (:

Honestly I'm very glad everything's okay now because I didn't feel good back then. Thankyou :)

Bloody shit I'm so pissed now 129 BUCKS FOR A1 SIZE POSTER FOR STATS PROJECT WHAAAAAT IN THE WORLD? What the hell )': I freaked out didn't know how on earth to break this horrible news to my poor group mates so I pushed this job to Hari. Thanks so much :) I'm so sorry I didn't manage to find a cheaper alternative :( But OH MY GOD 129 BUCKS?!! FOR 15% OF MA1102 MODULE GRADES?

2 BUCKS FOR 1 FREAKING PERCENT?

I'm going to sue the math department. )':

And if someone tells me now that there is actually a much cheaper alternative somewhere, I'm going to slap myself. And maybe pay for my group mates. :(

ARGH. I wonder how the rest of the cohort is going to handle this print-A1-size-poster crisis :O

Today, I saw what I thought I really saw, and for the first time after so long, I felt scared, I couldn't breathe. I frantically sat up straight, looked away, and made up something in my mind to say.

Turn out I was mistaken, I didn't know whether to feel sad, or to be relieved that wasn't you I just saw.
And then I stopped, and thought hard.

Why do I care?



I miss nanhua. Because yknw what?, at least the people had a reason when they turn their back twds you, they don't do it when you needed them most, they don't do it for out of a sudden and leave you wondering what the hell you did wrong.
Nowadays people are changing really fast. One day you trust him or her so much and love this person like hell as a friend, the next day, they walk past you like they don't even know you.
Why? I can't catch up, tell me, is life supposed to be like this now?

In the end, the only thing I get from all this shit is, guess who's your best friend: yourself.

-
I like running.
It gets things off my mind. Ran without a watch today, I just kept running, with music in my ears, the breeze blowing, without bothering to keep track of the time, not bothering to see whether it is already getting dark, not bothering to check whether to breathe in or out when my left or right foot is out, not bothering to keep track of how far I've ran, not bothering how messy my hair got while running and with all the sweat.

Stadium was closed today, so finally, for the first time after I've been staying in Bukit gombak for so long, I walked over to Little Guilin. It was really pretty in the evening sun. There I saw little kids running around, saw people taking pictures, saw couples whispering in each other's ears. They were all smiling. I saw children playing badminton, with the wind blowing and the shuttle cock never able to reach the racket, but still, they looked happy.

Today's pretty much a good day anyway. Attempted to do our math project in school with Sheng Mu and Hari, we ended up gossiping and talking about all sorts of random stuff. Who knew the two of them were such nice people to talk to? I'm blessed to have such nice classmates. In fact I already kinda missed them all after what, 5 days?



Which made me think all over again. Life may be such a bitch at times. Perhaps sometimes you will think everyone and everything in this world is just present to piss the hell outta you, but then, heads up, look around you, there are also people who can make your day and make you smile. It's time to acknowledge these people, yes?

Tomorrow will be a better day.
I like trainings. I like being with people like yuxin feli gabby xinyi and everyone else, because they never fail to make my day. :)

Down with fever, head's spinning like mad now sigh and my throat hurts quite badly. Bad start to my september holidays, but I know I'll get well soon because I'm a strong lil person :) My entire family's sick too, sister's suspected of H1N1 :( Get well soon kay <3

Anyway, today's still overall a good day. Spent the whole day at shihan's house, trying out his new chocolate fountain which was really cool woooo, playing wii with tanmin, bridge, daidee, eating chicken rice without chilli, playing the werewolf game which was really fun and funny! hahaha. :D Shouldn't have eaten so much choc just now, now my throat is hurting :( Btw shihan why are you so fierce twds your brother treat him in a nicer manner! haha. I wna get well fast, by tomorrow. I really want to meet up with sucker tmr for lunch :(

Weekend was good too, softball softball. Rained in the morning on sunday, mud mud everywhere. And we smartly decided to ditch our slacks on sunday because we thought the weather will be really hot. Haha but it's okayy, we love love love mud don't we. :) Three games, played catcher for some, managed to stay patient and waited and eyed the ball while batting. Yes stay patient that's the way k. No more stupid temper, control. Came home, spent an hour washing up all my dirty stuff, and spent another half an hour cleaning my lovely bobalandrus, my glove btw. Now it's clean and doesn't smell as bad already. :D

My body clock is srsly badly screwed up. What I need to do now is: sleep.

Yay hi! I'm posting from my phone in school ahaha damn cool right i never my phone's internet is this good :D I'm bored, waiting here waiting for e-broadcast to start wasting my youth away.omg i love 04 listening to yuxian xinyun leonard and hari is the funniest thing on earth HAHAHA. Going down to bat for a little while later with fishie stop losing temper and getting annoyed yes stop it i can do it!! Then 04's dress-pretty party! Yay. alright, e-broadcast now. Ttfn! :)

Today's reeeeeeeeally cool and reeeeeeeally good :D

1. TDC @ nj was pretty good :D I like the council production!
2. Still think My Lye is super good looking!!
3. BACK TO NANHUA
4. Saw kelly the monster, gwendolyn tan, sucker, grace, buddy!! and many others :D
5. Didn't see eunice and biqi :(
6. Lunch @ Mosburger with yijin! caught up a lot wheee
7. Lot 1 to meet up with Julia, Jas and Thenghui!
8. Walked around and talked :D
9. THE PROPOSAL WAS DAMN GOOD AND FUNNY HAHAHAHA
10. The guy in The Proposal's very very cute! heh
11. Neoprints afterwards!
12. Didn't spend a lot of money today and had one of the best days everrr
13. Took loads of pictures! Bringing my camera was a good idea afterall heheh
14. My hotmail's now spammed with facebook mails - comments from pictures O:
15. GRACE RIKA SHUYIH RENHUI CANOEING TEAM'S BACK FROM PRAGUE.
16. "MY FRIENDS ARE WORLD CHAMPIONS DON'T PLAY PLAY AHHHHHHHH!!!"
17. I LOVE TODAY SO MUCHHH.

I'm so tired now a more detailed post tmr!