ball boy, little ben 10 <3



During this past week I met the happiest people in the world. They may be half naked, stomachs bloated 'cause of malnutrition, barefooted everywhere they go, but the smiles on their faces never change.

The kind of warmth, the kind of love they have for each other, the gratitude they show as a result of our tiniest actions, it's amazing. This is something I'll never be able to forget for the rest of my life.

ISL 2010 Cambodia.

OH YEAA :D shouldn't it be GOOD things come in small packages instead! Mmmm :D

STILL damn tired today.Makes me wonder if I'm dying soon. ZZZZ. Anyhoos I'm getting started on projects I'm damn proud of myself :) Training cancelled today cause all of us didn't want to train heh. Weather was super nice though, came home, ignored the fact that I was damn shag for some reason, I went out to run and it sure felt refreshing and good :)

Floorball holic tmr! Hope we don't get thrashed hahahha okay okay we can do it yess :D

So that's the deal. 1 month. I wish I could read the future, and know where this would bring me. Ah.

11.11pm,
I wish tomorrow would be a more productive day
I wish I would be happier soon

I've been feeling so insanely tired these few days. Slept damn alot, like I slept this afternoon and now I'm already falling asleep. I think I slept too much, but it's like a vicious cycle I cannot put to an end :( I really needddd sleeppp but the more I sleep, the more tired I get so what do I do?! Ahh I really don't want school to start again :( Why don't jc students have holidays due to YOG too?! Life is unfair. Oh yeah true, life's never fair. Going for soccer and probably gymnastics for YOG! There's still so much more I wanna go for, if not for being broke and SCHOOL.

I had a bad dream this morning!!!!!!!!!!! I woke up with a start and burst into tears haha, felt quite dumb afterwards but oh well. I dreamt Lord Voldemort came into nj! I was Harry Potter, and the last Horcrux was left with me for me to destroy but Voldemort was trying to get it back. I needed to do something else, so I told my classmates to protect the Horcrux for awhile. And they were killed by Voldemort! D: Monster, shar, sijia, and xinyun. Even Qiheng, hunquan and issac was in my dream like wth?! Yeah xinxian was screaming away, yuxian was running frantically, monster was a helpless wizard in my dream and all of you got killed :( What a sad and horrifying dream ;((((((((((

On a side note, I need to stop thinking so much. I need to have a less complex mind, so that everything else would be less complicated than it really is. This really isn't doing me any good :(

Okay I really need sleep now. Shucks.

ALL TESTS DOWN! or at least we think so oh yay awesomeee stress level halved :) 5 days holiday coming next!

Team dinner just now was damn fun! I love my team :D I hope more awesome people join softball next yr when they come into nj! :)

Bedtime!

YAY 04 survived today :) Physics bio hist tests one after another crazyyyyyyy but at least we're over and done with all that shit that's awesome :) I really like Thiru's lessons now he's so fun to disturb hahahaha I still can't get over the fact that I mistook a construction worker as Thiru :/ But oh well both of them are.... SHAN'T BE RACIST.

Anyway! My arms died on me :( They're whining and groaning for a break! But after training I still made them practice the piano ahah can't help it I needed a place to vent that little bit of frustration in me and Alligator's Crawl was perfect for that. Or at least for me. Training killed me :( Or maybe my stupid flu did. Annoying nose, pissed me off >:( My throwing improved! I'm using my hips now yay! On a happy note, though completely random, I'm gonna have much more free time to myself this week. YESSS omg finally. :)

JOKE OF THE DAY
Talking about watermelon juice.
Shar: Yes I think watermelon juice is probably the best juice I've ever tried!
Yuxian: Have you tried MY juice?

GROSS TTM YUXIAN thank god we were all done with our lunch but it was damn funny hahahahha

04 is fun :)

Let's get back to studying. HUMAN GEOG IS BORINGGGGG or at least the spatial interaction part is. It's putting me to sleep :(

I can't wait for things to be...better. Tell me what's going on in your head, or do I not deserve to know? :( I wish life's not so busy, I wish my mum don't interfere as much, I wish I could be more understanding. I'm trying ):

I'm shag so this post shall be numbered to make things easier.

1. Tired tired tired this past week had been a hell of a week.
2. Cousin went back to aus alrd :( Farewell dinner for him on thurs manz i'm gonna miss him!





3. Out with some of the softballers on friday, didnt get to watch despicable me upsettttttttttttt :( but it was still nice jason was retarded and annoying, ryan was nice and I MISS YUXIN SO MUCHHH caught up with her a little <3
4. "I'm a 48 yr old in the body of a 12 yr old" ---- Yuxin (OMGWTHSRSLY?!)
5. I miss monster so freaking much :( can't wait for him to be back TMR TMR TMRRRRR :))))
6. I'm getting a new lappie tmr! (hopefully (:) BYE sucky fujitsu
7. ISL cambodia trip is 9 /10 days longggggggg omgosh i've never been overseas for more than 5 days what am i gonna do what if I die of homesickness :(
8. Next week is gonna be another hell of a week with field trip, track meets, trainings, softball fundraising etc
9. Softball fundraising! Hope it'll be successful!!!!! Really wanna get enough funds and fly to Jakarta end of year for softball with team it'll be damn awesome!!
10. Track meets! Got into 100m, 400m, and 100m relay finals please let me get at least one medal!
11. Okay I'm tired meh :(
12. Have a good night my fwenz :D

This week so far had been rather sucky :( Felt exhausted mentally and physically most of the time though I slept more than usual this week. Bad mood and mood swings, especially when I'm back at home without my retarded classmates who can make me laugh like shit most of the time. And guess who I put this moodiness out on? I'm sorry monster :( The only good thing about this week is I've been productive in work yay :)

Today's like one of the better days so far :D Got news that I am selected for ISL Cambodia trip end of this yr! YESSSS I'M EXCITED :D Xinyi's going too!!! :D I hope it'll be a fab trip :) Heats for 100m indiv was great too! I hope I get into finals *twist fingers* Happy happy (:

It's only week 3 of term 3 and I'm already feeling the stress. AH I really want to do well this term :(

Maybe I'd be happier if I control these expectations of mine, not letting them get of hand. Maybe things will be better if I stop expecting him to be perfect, like how I always thought him to be till I start doubting myself.
He's human. Nobody's perfect. Stop acting like a total bitch ;(

TRAINING TOMORROW. YES YES YESSSS

Day 1 as a sixteen year old :) Oh my I feel so mature (HAHA joke)

I don't think I've said this in a long time for the past few years, and I'm finally gonna say it this year! I HAD A FREAKING AWESOME BIRTHDAY 2010 :D  Although I spent most of the time in mcdonalds playing cards, suffering from the pains of my horrible cramps, and not getting to bowl/watch movie/kbox or anything else, but it was a day spent with my best friend, my bunch of most awesome classmates, my parents, and monster! And this means more than anything else :) THANKYOU SO MUCH! I was touched when sharmera cancelled her tution and xinxian cancelled her appt to spend the day with me, uhh touched to have all of you spend the day with me! touched when monster came down after his match and even sent me home even though he was super tired! touched when I finally got home my family was still up waiting for me with a cake and a present!

At 11.45pm on 10th July I didn't want 11th July to come cause I was scared no one would remember me and I won't get any facebook messages/smses :( So I was doing my chinese comprehension to pass the awful 15mins and when I started getting spammed by people I WAS SO HAPPY AND EXCITED :D:D:D

Hell yeah I'm one lucky girl. 16 alrd! I'll be more mature, really :)

And I really really love all of you, Huimin, Sijia, Yuxian, Xinxian, Sharmera, monster. :) And of course everyone else who wished me omg yayyy sweet sixteen wouldn't have been possible without all of you (: